Tuesday, December 28, 2010

Prompt 25: Photo - a present to yourself

Sift through all the photos of you from the past year.  Choose one that best captures you; either who you are or who you strive to be.  Find the shot of you that is worth a thousand words.  Share the image, who shot it, where, and what it best reveals about you.

I know it's a picture of my and Andrew's feet, not of me, but I love this picture because of the memory of that day.  I took this picture when we were on our honeymoon in Maine and it was a wonderful day.  We were spontaneous - driving to four different lighthouses in one day without much of a plan.  We took this picture after we walked out to a lighthouse.  It was extremely hot so we sat down on the rocks surrounding the lighthouse before we decided to walk back to the shore.  After this picture was taken, we went to see this amazing woman who makes rag rugs.  We bought one that is now in the front hallway of our home, which is a great reminder of our trip.  This picture reminds me of that day and the fun I have simply hanging out with Andrew.

Prompt 26: Soul food

What did you eat this year that you will never forget?  What went into your mouth and touched your soul?

We got invited to Carrabba's for a free dinner on them!  It was some of the best food I have ever eaten in my life.  You can read about it here.

Prompt 27: Ordinary joy

Our most profound joy is often experienced during ordinary moments.  What was one of your most ordinary joyful moments this year?

We had a really good day where we took the dog to go get boxwood bushes for our garden, came back to the house and planted them, and then ordered pizza.  It was great because we worked really hard, felt really accomplished, and then got to hang out with the puppy and eat pizza.  That was a good day!

Monday, December 27, 2010


We had a wonderful Christmas as I hope everyone else did!

On Christmas Eve we went to church for the four thirty service where I sang and Andrew ran the powerpoint.  Then it was off to friend's house for a party that's been going on since I was in the fourth grade.  It's a wonderful tradition with family and friends that I love going to every year.  Then it was off to the eleven o'clock candlelight service at church where I got to sit with my parents for the first time ever, since they're usually singing in the choir.  Andrew and I finished up the night by coming home and putting on our Christmas pajamas, one of his family traditions that we carry on.  I got these snazzy pajama pants this year!  (Those are polar bears on them if you can't tell.)

On Christmas morning we woke up and went over to my parent's house where we had the fullest house for Christmas morning we've ever had.  It was:
  • my grandma
  • my aunt
  • my mom and dad
  • me and Andrew
  • my brother, his girlfriend, and her brother
  • my sister, her fiance, and his brother
We opened presents and I was so excited to see that everyone loved the presents we got them.  My presents included purple candlesticks, a purse made of saris, the movie Inception (I'm so excited to watch the extras),  and my favorite gift - tickets from Andrew to see Wicked!!!  We had tickets to see it last week, but we both ended up sick and weren't able to go, so I'm so excited to be able to see it and not have to be sad every time I hear about Wicked!

After we opened presents, Andrew and I went back to our house to meet his family, his dad, stepmom, and sister, who were driving down to spend the weekend with us.  They hadn't ever been to our house so we spent some time there with them showing them the house and Schmoo!

Then we went back over to my parent's house for Christmas dinner and games.  The day went really well.  Andrew's family and my family get along really well, which is absolutely wonderful.

We were able to spend some more time with them over the weekend.  We went out to brunch at Cafe Patachou and then saw the movie Tangled, which was absolutely wonderful.  (It's been a while since I've seen a Disney movie that's been that good!  If you're thinking about seeing it, you totally should!!!)  Then we went back over to my parent's house to watch the Colt's game with everyone.  We got to spend some more time last night talking and playing games back at our house with Andrew's family.  We even managed to light our first ever fire in our fireplace last night.

Overall, I think the Christmas was relaxing and wonderful.  It was so nice to be around all of our family, especially because they were (mostly) all in one spot!

Friday, December 24, 2010

Prompt 24: Everything's OK

What was the best moment that could serve as proof that everything is going to be alright?  And how will you incorporate that discovery into the year ahead?

The moment that Andrew acknowledged how hard things had  been the last time he was looking for work and told me that he would not let that happen again.  It showed me that he realizes that he needs to do things differently, even if it's not something that's easy for him.

I will try my best to support him and encourage him to do the things he needs to do (update his resume, send out applications, talk to people who would be able to serve as contacts) without pushing him to do those things.  The most important thing is for Andrew and I to remember that we're in this together and that we're on the same side, something that it can hard to keep in mind when times are tough.


Andrew lost his job yesterday.  It was completely unexpected.  Obviously, it has changed things.

But I figure we have two options.  Option one is to be upset about it, to blame the company for not having any loyalty to its employees (even after three years), and to dwell on it.  Option two is to realize that there's nothing either of us can do to change it, to be grateful for the support we have around us, and to view this as an opportunity for Andrew to find a job that he actually enjoys.

So even though things around me are changing and uncertain, I am doing my best to be calm about it.  Even if I don't always feel calm, because I have a hard time with things being out of my control and because I hate seeing Andrew discouraged, I think that acting calm about it will help Andrew and I eventually be at peace with this.

(I definitely think there are things that God puts in our path at particular moments.  One of those is the song Peace Peace by Sara Groves.  I had never heard the song until earlier this week when we started rehearsing for the Christmas Eve service at church.  I definitely think that I was supposed to hear it this week to help me be at peace with what has happened.)

Peace Peace
by Sara Groves

Peace, peace, it's hard to find

Trouble comes like wrecking ball
To you peace of mind
And all that worry you can't leave behind you

All your hopes and fears
All your hopes and fears, oh
All your hopes and fears
Are met in Him tonight

Peace, peace, it's hard to find
Doubt comes like a tiny voice that's so unkind
And all your fears they conspire
To unwind you

All your hopes and fears
All your hopes and fears, oh
All your hopes and fears
Are met in Him

And in your dark street shines 
An everlasting light
And all your hopes and fears
Are met in Him tonight

And all your hopes and fears
All your hopes and fears, oh
All your hopes and fears
Are met in Him tonight

Peace, peace
Peace, peace
Peace, peace

Thursday, December 16, 2010

Prompt 15: 5 Minutes

Imagine you will completely lose your memory of 2010 in five minutes.  Set an alarm for five minutes and capture the things you most want to remember about 2010.

Looking at houses.  Our feet freezing in the first one we looked at because the heat was turned off.  How huge the third house we looked at was and thinking about using all of that space.  Hanging out with Blaine.  Going in through the back door that happened to be open of the house we actually bought because Blaine could never get his key to work in the lockbox.  Sitting on the barstools in the kitchen talking about this house.  Moving in.  Feeling comfortable being in the house by myself, even when Andrew spent the weekend in Chicago.  Planting bushes and bulbs in the front yard.  Picking spots for trees in the back.  Learning to mow the lawn.  Deciding to actually look at puppies.  Driving to Muncie to look at the litter of puppies.  Schmoo coming up to us whenever we made eye contact with him.  Bringing him home in the car and how tiny he was.  Watching him clumsily climb up and down the stairs.  His first bath and then him peeing in the middle of our bed afterwards.  His first time in the snow and how he eats it.  Our housewarming party and how fun it was to have people over.

Prompt 14: Appreciate

What's the one thing you have come to appreciate most in the past year?  How do you express gratitude for it?

My husband!  Not that I didn't already appreciate him, but I've realized this past year just how much I appreciate his patience.

I am extremely impatient.  I don't like waiting for anything, even something as simple as waiting to talk to someone.  Andrew is the opposite.  His is extremely patient.  He is willing to realize that some things take more time than others.  He shows that he is patient with situations, such as when we were waiting to see if our offer was accepted on our house, and with people, which is me most of the time.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Stream of consciousness thinking and researching

Tonight I read this post about The Great House by Nicole Krauss.

I went to find more information about the book and about Nicole Krauss to figure out what the title of her first book was.  I learned that it was A Man Walked Into a Room, which I realized I already own but haven't read yet.  I also learned that Nicole Krauss is married to Jonathan Safran Foer.

I read a negative review of Jonathan Safran Foer and his work, which I completely disagree with because I LOVE his writing, but realize that it's not for everyone.  (I was surprised to learn how many of his ideas he supposedly copied from other writers.)

I saw that there were links to a bunch of Jonathan Safran Foer's short stories, so I read "Cravings" about famous people's mothers.  That led me to think about Adolf Hitler's parents and when they died, so I went to find out more about Adolf Hitler and his father and his mother.  I found out that they died when he was in his twenties.  I also found out that he had a sister, who outlived him.

I read "A Primer for the Punctuation of Heart Disease" and couldn't figure out my opinion on it.  Either I absolutely love it because of the way that it perfectly describes the way family members talk to each other or I absolutely hate it for butchering punctuation, which I also absolutely LOVE.  Maybe even more than I LOVE Jonathan Safran Foer.

(Doesn't this post kind of read like a poem?  I think I like it!)

Monday, December 13, 2010

Prompt 13: Action

When it comes to aspirations, it's not about ideas.  It's about making ideas happen.  What's your next step?

When I was catching up on some of the blogs I read, I ran across a post about The 8 Habits of Highly Productive People.  I think this really ties into the prompt for today because I know what I want to do with my time, I just have a hard time actually doing it.

One of my favorite parts of the posts had a few questions to ask yourself about everything you're doing.
For everything you’re doing now, ask yourself how important this is. Does this bring you dramatically closer to your dreams? Does this create any real impact in your life in the long-term? Is it the absolute best way to spend your time or can you be doing more high value tasks? If not, perhaps it’s time to ditch it. No point doing something unimportant! 

Prompt 12: Body Integration

This year, when did you feel the most integrated with your body?  Did you have a moment where there wasn't mind and body, but simply a cohesive YOU, alive and present?

I had a hard time connecting with this prompt because I don't usually feel a disconnect between my mind and body.  But I would have to say that the moment this made me think of was when we went kayaking while we were on our honeymoon.

The last place we stayed had kayaks that we were able to take out on the cove.  If we went under a bridge, we were able to go into the harbor and kayak around the big boats that were going out into the ocean.  We did it two days in a row and loved every second of it.

Sunday, December 12, 2010

Our Christmas Tree

We managed to get our house all decorated for Christmas before we had our housewarming party, but I haven't had time to blog about putting our Christmas tree up.

Andrew and I bought our Christmas tree last year at Target because we wanted to have our own tree for our apartment.  It actually worked out perfectly because when we were up at his dad's house for Christmas, his dad decided that it was time to give some of the ornaments that Andrew and his sister grew up with to them since he was getting remarried.  That meant we ended up with some of these fabulous ornaments.
The "Ugly Green Ornament."  We think it looks
like moss growing on an ornament.
What we call "The Christmas Turtle."
No one in the family wanted this ornament
so we thought we should give it a home!
Spiderman.  He has string that comes from both of
his hands so he can be suspended between branches.
That's right.  Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles.
It says "Merry Christmas, Dude!" on the ornament. 
We always hang this ornament low
because the cats love to play with it!
When we put the tree up this year, we were worried about how our puppy, Schmoo, would handle having a tree in the house so we decided to put it in the office so that we could shut the doors to the room if we needed to.  The surprising thing was that Schmoo didn't seem to care about the tree at all.  We brought it in from the garage and let him smell it.  He figured out that it didn't have a smell and then he left it alone.  In fact, the only time he seems to care about the tree at all is when one of the cats is underneath it.
Schmoo checking out one of
our cats, Olly, under the tree.
We usually add at least one new ornament each year, but this year we added a bunch.
We got this moose ornament when were were on
our honeymoon in Maine.
And we couldn't get a moose without
getting a lobster to go with it.
This is the ornament I made from ourwedding program.
I saw the idea on one of the blogs I follow (I can't remember
which one!) and thought it was a really cute idea!
We got ornaments for each of our pets.

Overall, I think our tree turned out really well this year.

I linked this post to Thrifty Decor Chick's Christmas tree linky party.  This is the first linky party I've done and I'm really excited about it!

Prompt 11: 11 Things

What are 11 things your life doesn't need in 2011?  How will you go about eliminating them?  How will getting rid of these 11 things change your life?

  1. Depression/anxiety - I will remember to take time for myself.  I will talk to Andrew about how I'm feeling and remember that the way I'm feeling is not necessarily the way things are.
  2. Weight - I need to seriously commit to my health in 2011.  I am tired of feeling unhappy with my weight and with my body.  I will continue the personal training with Andrew and remember that I'm happier when I work out on a consistent basis.
  3. Dehydration - I do not drink a lot of water unless I make the conscious effort to drink a lot of water, which means that I'm dehydrated most of the time.  I need to remember that I feel better when I've been drinking water and I'm not dehydrated.
  4. Wasting time - I need to think about how I'm spending my time and make a conscious effort to spend it the way I want to.  This means limiting the time I spend watching TV or reading blogs and making time for things like talking to Andrew, playing with Schmoo, working out, and reading books.  I need to remember that when I'm not thinking about how I spend my time, I usually end up wasting it.
  5. Responsibility for things that aren't in my control - As Andrew said to me today, I need to stop taking responsibility for things that aren't in my control.  So I can't take responsibility for other people's thoughts or actions.  I can only be responsible for myself and remember that that's enough.
  6. Lack of sleep - I know this is ironic considering that I'm writing this post at 12:11 at night, but I have a tendency to not get enough sleep and then to feel guilty when I need to catch up on sleep.  Today I took a long nap and it was wonderful.  When i woke up, I felt stressed and more motivated to do the things that I wanted to get done today.  I need to remember that taking time to sleep is not a waste of time.
  7. Negativity - I have a tendency to think very negatively about things sometimes.  I've found that if I make a conscious effort to think positively about something than I will usually feel better about it.  So I need to remember that the way I think about things affects the way I feel about them.
  8. Anti-social tendencies - I already posted about my anti-social tendencies when I feel stressed.  I need to remember that I enjoy being around people, even if I don't think that I will and to simply go be social!
  9. Being too hard on myself - I am always way to hard on myself, mostly because I have really high expectations for myself and for those around me.  I need to remember that I'm not perfect and that that's okay.
  10. Being too hard on Andrew - I am also too hard on Andrew because he's the one I spend most of my time with.  I also need to remember that Andrew's not perfect and that that's okay.  If he was, I wouldn't love him as much as I do!
  11. Disconnection from God - I need to remember that it's important for me to feel connected to God.  I often let things get in the way of my relationship with him, especially some of the things that I've listed above, and I need to remember that that's the most important thing in my life and I need to treasure it above everything else.

Saturday, December 11, 2010

Prompt 10: Wisdom

What was the wisest decision you made this year, and how did it play out?

I would have to say that the wisest decision I made this year was to buy a house.  Specifically, to have enough trust in myself, Andrew, and our ability to afford and find the right house that I was willing to even start looking.

I am the type of person who really likes to be in control, which means that it's hard for me to go into new situations that I don't know much about, which is exactly what buying a house felt like for me.  Even the idea of buying a house used to totally freak me out because it was such a huge decision, it was a fairly permanent decision, and it involved a ton of money.

It helped a ton that we had a family friend as our realtor because we could be completely honest with him about what we were looking for and what we thought about the houses we were looking at.  He made me so much more comfortable with the process.  

It also helped that I could be in control of the house search to a point.  I could find houses that we were interested in and ask the realtor to take us to see them.  Being able to be really involved in that part of the process helped me to feel like the house buying process was something I could handle.  

But the main thing helped was knowing that Andrew and I were in this process together.  He really helps me to see things differently.  So when I was seeing the risks of buying a house, he was seeing the rewards.

As for how it played out, the process was a lot longer one than I thought it would be. We bid on four different houses before we finally found one that worked out.  I am so glad with the way things worked out though because we are definitely in the right house for us.

Prompt 9: Party

What social gathering rocked your socks off in 2010? Describe the people, music, food, drink, clothes, shenanigans.

We had a housewarming party last weekend, which was the first big party that we've thrown at our house.  We got the entire house clean and decorated for Christmas, made a bunch of food, invited some of our favorite people, and enjoyed the fun!

I am not usually one to throw parties because I get worried about everything that could go wrong.  (Will people come?  Will they have fun?  Will we have enough food?)  But Andrew is really good at organizing parties and encouraging me to invite people over.  So we did and it worked out wonderfully.  We're even thinking of making it an annual event to host a Christmas party on the first weekend in December so mark your calendars for next year!!!

We had all kinds of food and drinks.  We also had all kinds of people.  We had a lot of friends from church over as well as a lot of Andrews work friends, with some others thrown in as well.  People got to see our house and meet our puppy, Schmoo.  We also got to see Schmoo see little kids for the first time, which was really entertaining.  People really seemed to enjoy themselves.  I know I did!

Thursday, December 9, 2010

Prompt 8: Beautifully Different

Think about what makes you different and what you do that lights people up.  Reflect on all the things that make you different - you'll find they're what make you beautiful.

Picture from here

Traditions:  I LOVE traditions.   I love that the traditions we have allow me to have something to look forward to all year.  If I had it my way, we would do the exact same thing every year for Christmas.  I love watching the same movies, baking the same cookies, putting up the same decorations, and listening to the same Christmas music.  This made it really hard for me to think about spending Christmas away from my family this year (Andrew and I decided we would alternate spending Thanksgiving or Christmas with our families each year).  I know that spending Christmas in Michigan will turn out fine when we do it, but this year it worked out that his family can come to Indiana for Christmas, which means we get to spend Christmas with BOTH of our families.  I couldn't be happier!!!

Compassion:  This is one of my greatest strengths as well as one of my greatest weaknesses.  I am deeply sensitive about things that are going on with others, especially with my students, which means that sometimes it's hard for me to let things go.  I tend to bring their problems home from school with me.   I actually considered this when I was trying to figure out what I wanted to do with my life.  I was torn between teaching and youth ministry, but I figured that I needed the separation that teaching provided.  I'm so glad that I chose teaching because it's really allowed me to work with some kids that I wouldn't have worked with as a youth minister.  I also think I'm much better at teaching than I ever would have been at youth ministry.

When I asked Andrew to help me come up with a list of things that for this prompt, he came up with some things that I hadn't even thought of.  He came up with:

Picture from here
Easily excitable:  I'm always excited to tell him about things or to share things with him.  I get really excited about little things, which makes it really easy for Andrew to make me happy.  For example, last week he told me that a package would be coming in the mail that was for both of us.  When the package got here this week, I found out that he'd remembered that we wanted to try a specific kind of panettone that Giada De Laurentiis had mentioned.  I have been so excited every time I get to eat a piece of it this week.

Tells good stories:  I don't even know what to say about this one.  I'm happy that he thinks I tell good stories because I tell a lot of them!

Thoughtfulness:  I spend a lot of time thinking about others.  I love spending time with them (even though I already told you that I have problems being social from time to time!)  I also love giving people meaningful gifts.  The fact that this is different from others has become increasingly obvious over the past few years as I'm shopping for birthday presents and Christmas presents.  I shop during the entire year, picking up things that I think people would like as I see them.  Andrew shops on Christmas Eve!  I buy gifts that I think people would enjoy.  Andrew buys gifts from the lists that people give him.  I never realized that our shopping styles were so different!

Strength:  His specific words were "You're stronger than you think you are.  Everyone knows it, just not you."  One of the times I love my family the most is when we have to deal with a crisis because we all come together.  We know what's important and what's not.  We know that we need to support each other and love each other.  I think a lot of the strength I have has come from the crises that my family and I have faced and gotten through together.

Prompt 7: Community

Where have you discovered community, online or otherwise, in 2010?  What community would you like to join, create, or more deeply connect with in 2011?

I had a hard time with this prompt.  Mostly because I have a tendency to be friends with people for a long time.  It's hard for me to make new friends.  The "new" friends I've made in the past few years have actually been people I was friends with in high school that I have reconnected with because I'm more comfortable with people I already know.

I have a tendency to become withdrawn when things get stressful.  I spend so much energy teaching and talking to my students every day that sometimes it's hard for me to want to socialize with other people.  I'm always glad when I do, but I have a hard time convincing myself that I should be social.

The community I have is a group of my friends from church.  We meet up every Thursday night at Friday's.  (Ironic, huh?)  We see each other at church on Sunday.  We get together to play games and celebrate birthdays and spend time together.

In 2011, I would love to deepen some of my relationships.  I have a tendency to rely on the group events we have planned with our church group instead of getting together with people in smaller groups or one on one.  That means that some of the friendships are not as deep as I would like them to be.  I would also like to spend some time deepening my reconnected friendships and exploring the possibility for new friendships with some of my acquaintances.

Monday, December 6, 2010

Prompt 6: Make

What was the last thing you made?  What materials did you use?  Is there something you want to make, but you need to clear some time for it?

I have had so much fun decorating our house for Christmas!  The main thing I made was the wreath for our front door.  I'd already made a wreath that I used to hang on the door of our apartment, but it moved inside this year because I wanted a bigger wreath for the front door of the house.
The old wreath

The new wreath
Can you tell I like the sparkly, spirally things since they're in both wreaths?  I'm also pretty proud of the bow on the new wreath.  It's looking a little worse for wear at the moment because it's been outside in the wind and the snow.  I've never been able to make the big, decorative bows, but this year I figured I'd give it a try.  I think the bows I made (they're also on the lights on either side of the garage and on the lamppost in the front yard) turned out pretty well.

I would love to set aside some time to scrapbook!  I have some of the wedding scrapbook done, but it's hard for me to make much progress on it because I feel like the scrapbook has to look as good as the pictures, which are absolutely gorgeous!  I also have to scrapbook buying and moving into the house and our honeymoon and I want to scrapbook the Christmas cards this year.  Last year I scrapbooked our Christmas card and some of the cards that we got from our family and friends.  It's a great way to keep track of what's happened in our lives and the lives of our family and friends in the past year.  I know there's a lot I want to get done, but I'm really excited about it!  I can't wait to have some time over Christmas break to start on it.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

Prompt 5: Let Go

What (or whom) did you let go of this year?  Why?

I let go of a friendship this year.  I have a friend that I've known since I moved to Indiana.  We grew up together doing almost everything together - going to church, each other's birthday parties, and we were supposed to go to each other's weddings.

She got married a few months before I did.  My fiance and I went to their wedding, bought them a gift, and had a great time.  She and her husband RSVPed for our wedding but did not show up.  I figured something had come up and waited to hear from her.  (There were a few others who didn't make it to the wedding that I heard from within a few days.)  But I didn't hear from her.  For over a year.  She never contacted me to apologize for missing my wedding or acknowledge the fact that I got married.

I'll be the first to admit that I have a hard time letting go of friendships.  I am still friends with most of the people I've been friends with in my life.  I think I'm pretty good at keeping in contact, remembering their birthdays, and congratulating them when they have important events in their lives.  So I held onto hope for this friendship for a long time.  But I also realized that any continuance of the friendship would have to come from her so I didn't contact her, though I really wanted to.  We haven't talked in over a year and a half, and I have absolutely no reason why.

But I finally let/made myself let go of the friendship.  The way I did that was by acknowledging that there are some people who you are friends with for a certain period of time and then you aren't really friends with them after that.  And that's okay.  I don't dislike her in any way.  I'm simply confused by what happened and realized that I couldn't keep caring about someone who obviously showed that they didn't care about me.

Prompt 4: Wonder

How did you cultivate a sense of wonder this year?

My wonder definitely came from getting our puppy, Schmoo.  Getting him and taking care of him has made me see things from his perspective.  It's been great to be able to be with him while he grows and learns about the world.  Seeing him have so many "firsts" like his first walk, his first bone, his first time being in our house, and his first time going in the snow has been amazing.  It has reminded me that there's pleasure in the little things in life  and to appreciate ever "first" moment I get with him as he grows up!

Saturday, December 4, 2010

Prompt 3: Moment

Pick one moment during which you felt most alive this year.  Describe it in vivid detail (texture, smells, voices, noises, colors).

This would definitely be while we were on our honeymoon in Maine.  I don't have a specific instant, but we spent so much time exploring new places that we couldn't help but feel alive.  Some of my best memories were hearing about a restaurant we should try or a place we could go from someone and then deciding that we would do it.  We were so spontaneous, only knowing where we wanted to go and a few of the places we were staying before we left.  The rest of our trip was somewhat unplanned and some of our best adventures and memories happened because of that.

  • We went to an amazing local restaurant because of the recommendation of the woman working at the car rental counter.  
  • We stayed in some great bed and breakfasts by booking a room the night before.  
  • We made the best of a foggy day at Acadia National Park by going out to see the park anyway, which let us see the park without the crowds.  When we went back the next day we saw a completely different view of the same sights.  
  • We had one of, if not the, best dinners I've ever had at a restaurant that Andrew had heard mentioned.
  • We were adventurous and went kayaking through the harbor where there were tons of boats that were bigger than us that were going out into the ocean.  We actually went out to the point where we could see the entrance to the ocean from the harbor and had to deal with some pretty strong waves, but had so much fun doing it.

Thursday, December 2, 2010

Prompt 2: Writing

What do you do each day that doesn't contribute to your writing - and can you eliminate it?

This prompt ties in perfectly with my word for next year: intention.  When I actually sit down and think about the things that are important to me reading about what other people are thinking, feeling, experiencing on their blogs and contributing to that conversation on my blog is one of them.  I have every intention of taking the time to write on my blog, but I always seem to find excuses.

My biggest excuse for not writing is not feeling inspired.  When I feel like I have something to write about then I'm great at writing, but that inspiration only comes from time to time so I only write from time to time.  I think it definitely helps me to have a prompt to respond to because it gets me thinking about something that I wouldn't have thought of and written about on my own.

The other reason I have trouble writing is I often feel like it doesn't matter to others if I write on my blog or not.  I know that a few people read it, but I don't know if I contribute enough through my blog for me to be missed when I'm not writing.  And it's hard for me to commit myself to something when I don't feel that I'm making much of a contribution.  But I also know that I can only contribute by committing to doing so.

Wednesday, December 1, 2010

Prompt 1: One Word.

Encapsulate the year 2010 in one word. Explain why you’re choosing that word. Now, imagine it’s one year from today, what would you like the word to be that captures 2011 for you?

This year has been about trust. Trust that my husband loves me.  Trust that we can afford to buy a house.  Trust that our honeymoon, for which I did the majority of the planning, would turn out well.  Trust that we can take care of a puppy.  Trust that no matter what happens to us, we are in this life together.

I tend to worry a lot about things that are not in my control, so the idea of having to trust others can be hard for me.  And I've had to trust a lot of people this year - God, my husband, our realtor, the former owners of our house, the owners of the bed and breakfasts where we stayed, or the people who  ran the animal shelter where we got our puppy.  I think that having to relinquish control and trust in others was definitely good for me.  I hadn't really thought about the fact that I had to do that this year until writing this, but that really does sum up the year.

I would love for 2011 to be about intention.  I spend way too much time doing whatever is easiest instead of taking the time to think about what I really want to do with my time.  That means that a lot of my time gets wasted on things that aren't all that important.  I would love to be more intentional with my time and energy, to deliberately think about what I want to do with my minutes because they quickly add up to hours, days, weeks, months, and years.