- bake pumpkin cookies (raisin for me, chocolate chip for Andrew)
- make crockpot applesauce
- make chili
- make corn chowder
- make a bunch of other recipes from my fall Pinterest board
- pass out candy to trick or treaters
- make a fire in our fire pit and make smores
- and possibly carve pumpkins
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"There is little enough devotion in the world that we should be glad for it in whatever form it appears, and never mock it, or underestimate its depths." - Mark Doty
Sunday, September 29, 2013
My fall to do list
Monday, August 12, 2013
Weekly Mantra 8/12
I think I'm going to try to come up with a mantra for each week, which should help keep me focused and motivated. Since this week is the first week of school my mantra for this week is:
CARPE THE HELL OUT OF THIS DIEM
Saturday, August 10, 2013
Wrapping up summer
This has been a good summer. I feel like I've accomplished a lot while also taking the time to relax and rest so that I'm ready (though I never feel ready) for a new school year. This summer I:
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- taught four weeks of summer school
- lesson planned for the upcoming school year
- bought a birdfeeder for our backyard
- read a bunch of books
- finished the library reading program
- took a sign language class with Andrew
- knit two and a half prayer shawls
- took a week long vacation to Michigan with Andrew
- ate out at a few restaurants
- went to the Exotic Animal Rescue Center
- volunteered at the church rummage sale
- bought a hammock and a baker's rack from the rummage sale
- went to the Indianapolis Zoo
- went to the Indiana State Fair
It's been a good summer. This week I'm starting back to school so my goal is simply to get through the week with a positive attitude.
Wednesday, July 17, 2013
The Fault in Our Stars
I just finished reading The Fault in Our Stars by John Green. Oh my gosh. This is seriously the best book I've read in a long, long, long time. It's so good that I'm not even sure what to say about it except that you should go read it. Right now. Seriously.
Tuesday, June 25, 2013
Monday, June 3, 2013
Something to remember
"The Mighty One, God, the Lord,
speaks and summons the earth
from the rising of the sun to where it set." -Psalm 50:1
speaks and summons the earth
from the rising of the sun to where it set." -Psalm 50:1
Thursday, May 30, 2013
My First Memory (of Librarians)
My First Memory (of Librarians)
By Nikki Giovanni
This is my first memory:
A big room with heavy wooden tables that sat on a creaky
wood floor
A line of green shades—bankers’ lights—down the center
Heavy oak chairs that were too low or maybe I was simply
too short
For me to sit in and read
So my first book was always big
A big room with heavy wooden tables that sat on a creaky
wood floor
A line of green shades—bankers’ lights—down the center
Heavy oak chairs that were too low or maybe I was simply
too short
For me to sit in and read
So my first book was always big
In the foyer up four steps a semi-circle desk presided
To the left side the card catalogue
On the right newspapers draped over what looked like
a quilt rack
Magazines face out from the wall
To the left side the card catalogue
On the right newspapers draped over what looked like
a quilt rack
Magazines face out from the wall
The welcoming smile of my librarian
The anticipation in my heart
All those books—another world—just waiting
At my fingertips.
The anticipation in my heart
All those books—another world—just waiting
At my fingertips.
Wednesday, May 29, 2013
In the Library
In the Library
By William Stafford
You are reading a book, and think you know
the end, but others can’t wait—they crowd
on the shelves, breathing. You stop and look around.
It is the best time: evening is coming,
a bronze haze has captured the sun,
lights down the street come on.
the end, but others can’t wait—they crowd
on the shelves, breathing. You stop and look around.
It is the best time: evening is coming,
a bronze haze has captured the sun,
lights down the street come on.
You turn a page carefully. Over your shoulder
another day has watched what you do
and written it down in that book
you can’t read till all the pages are done.
another day has watched what you do
and written it down in that book
you can’t read till all the pages are done.
Tuesday, May 28, 2013
This made me think about pentecost in an entirely new way
"Babel was about everyone speaking one official imperial language. Pentecost is about the borderless God who speaks in every language."
— Brian Zahnd (@BrianZahnd) May 22, 2013
Monday, May 27, 2013
Something that made me think
“God is not a belief-system.
Jesus is not a religion.
Christianity is not a check-list.
Church is not an address.
The Bible is not a book of doctrines.
Community is not a meeting.
Grace has no exceptions.
Ministry is not a program.
Art is not carnal.
Women are not inferior.
Our humanity is not the enemy.
Sinner is not our identity.
Love is not a theory.
Peace is not a circumstance.
Science is not secular.
Sex is not filthy.
Life is not a warm-up for Heaven
The world is not without hope.
There is no “us” and “them.”
Tattoos are not evil.
Loving the earth is not satanic.
Seeing the divine in all things is not heretical.
Self-actualization is not self-worship.
Feelings are not dangerous and unreliable.
The mind is not infallible.”
Jesus is not a religion.
Christianity is not a check-list.
Church is not an address.
The Bible is not a book of doctrines.
Community is not a meeting.
Grace has no exceptions.
Ministry is not a program.
Art is not carnal.
Women are not inferior.
Our humanity is not the enemy.
Sinner is not our identity.
Love is not a theory.
Peace is not a circumstance.
Science is not secular.
Sex is not filthy.
Life is not a warm-up for Heaven
The world is not without hope.
There is no “us” and “them.”
Tattoos are not evil.
Loving the earth is not satanic.
Seeing the divine in all things is not heretical.
Self-actualization is not self-worship.
Feelings are not dangerous and unreliable.
The mind is not infallible.”
Jim Palmer, Notes From (over) The Edge
Sunday, May 26, 2013
Blue Like Jazz
It's been a long time since I've read the book Blue Like Jazz by Donald Miller. I don't remember much about it, other than that I liked his other book Through Painted Deserts more than I liked Blue Like Jazz.
This weekend, I was looking through the new releases on Netflix looking for something to watch when I ran across the movie Blue Like Jazz. I'm not really sure what I think about it. I don't know if I would have kept watching if I hadn't known that the author helped make the movie. The movie didn't follow the book, but was written as a type of interpretation of the book because people didn't think that the book would make an interesting enough movie. I know that they wanted to make a movie that was not the typical Christian movie, but it felt like they were trying too hard to go the other way.
I read an article about the movie that seemed to explain my feelings about the movie pretty well when it said,
Every once in a while, I felt like the tone of the book came through, but not very often. And, honestly, I'd have to reread the book to be sure, which I'm planning on doing because I want to be reminded of why I liked the book even if I hated the movie.
This weekend, I was looking through the new releases on Netflix looking for something to watch when I ran across the movie Blue Like Jazz. I'm not really sure what I think about it. I don't know if I would have kept watching if I hadn't known that the author helped make the movie. The movie didn't follow the book, but was written as a type of interpretation of the book because people didn't think that the book would make an interesting enough movie. I know that they wanted to make a movie that was not the typical Christian movie, but it felt like they were trying too hard to go the other way.
I read an article about the movie that seemed to explain my feelings about the movie pretty well when it said,
But more importantly, in a movie that's supposed to depict an authentic walk of faith, it just doesn't feel real. From what I've witnessed—in the Bible, in my own life, and in the lives of those around me—an encounter with God elicits a desire to share the good news, not to say sorry for it. This is something Miller himself seems to understand, or at least he did, at one point. Blue Like Jazz the book does not end with an apology. It ends with an exhortation. "I want you to know Jesus too," Miller writes. That's what knowing Jesus does—it makes you want other people to know him, as well. It's a truth as old as the Bible itself, but it's entirely absent from Blue Like Jazz the movie. Instead of "I want you to know Jesus," we hear, "I want you to apologize for Jesus." It's a message that Hollywood itself could have delivered.
Every once in a while, I felt like the tone of the book came through, but not very often. And, honestly, I'd have to reread the book to be sure, which I'm planning on doing because I want to be reminded of why I liked the book even if I hated the movie.
Wednesday, April 17, 2013
On being left out
Today I was left out of lunch plans by the teachers. It still hurts just as much as it always has to be left out.
Sunday, April 14, 2013
National Poetry Month: Mary Oliver
There's something about gardens outside of hospitals that brings a sense of peace to the sterile environment you find inside. This poem captures that feeling.
University Hospital, Boston By Mary Oliver
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The trees on the hospital lawn
are lush and thriving. They too
are getting the best of care,
like you, and the anonymous many,
in the clean rooms high above this city,
where day and night the doctors keep
arriving, where intricate machines
chart with cool devotion
the murmur of the blood,
the slow patching-up of bone,
the despair of the mind.
are lush and thriving. They too
are getting the best of care,
like you, and the anonymous many,
in the clean rooms high above this city,
where day and night the doctors keep
arriving, where intricate machines
chart with cool devotion
the murmur of the blood,
the slow patching-up of bone,
the despair of the mind.
When I come to visit and we walk out
into the light of a summer day,
we sit under the trees —
buckeyes, a sycamore, and one
black walnut brooding
high over a hedge of lilacs
as old as the red-brick building
behind them, the original
hospital built before the Civil War.
into the light of a summer day,
we sit under the trees —
buckeyes, a sycamore, and one
black walnut brooding
high over a hedge of lilacs
as old as the red-brick building
behind them, the original
hospital built before the Civil War.
We sit on the lawn together, holding hands
while you tell me: you are better.
How many young men, I wonder,
came here, wheeled on cots off the slow trains
from the red and hideous battlefields
to lie all summer in the small and stuffy chambers
while doctors did what they could, longing
for tools still unimagined, medicines still unfound,
wisdoms still unguessed at, and how many died
staring at the leaves of the trees, blind
to the terrible effort around them to keep them alive?
I look into your eyes
while you tell me: you are better.
How many young men, I wonder,
came here, wheeled on cots off the slow trains
from the red and hideous battlefields
to lie all summer in the small and stuffy chambers
while doctors did what they could, longing
for tools still unimagined, medicines still unfound,
wisdoms still unguessed at, and how many died
staring at the leaves of the trees, blind
to the terrible effort around them to keep them alive?
I look into your eyes
which are sometimes green and sometimes gray,
and sometimes full of humor, but often not,
and tell myself, you are better,
because my life without you would be
a place of parched and broken trees.
Later walking the corridors down to the street,
I turn and step inside an empty room.
Yesterday someone was here with a gasping face.
Now the bed is made all new,
the machines have been rolled away. The silence
continues, deep and neutral,
as I stand there, loving you.
and sometimes full of humor, but often not,
and tell myself, you are better,
because my life without you would be
a place of parched and broken trees.
Later walking the corridors down to the street,
I turn and step inside an empty room.
Yesterday someone was here with a gasping face.
Now the bed is made all new,
the machines have been rolled away. The silence
continues, deep and neutral,
as I stand there, loving you.
Saturday, April 13, 2013
National Poetry Month: Elizabeth Bishop (again)
When I was in college, I took a poetry class with an amazing professor who challenged me to write in different styles. One of those was to write a sestina which is incredibly hard because you have to keep repeating the same words but in different orders. This poem puts such great images in my mind, especially that of the Little Marvel Stove. When I was little, my grandmother had a little toy stove that we used to play with all of the time and this poem always makes me think of that stove.
SestinaBy Elizabeth Bishop
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September rain falls on the house.
In the failing light, the old grandmother
sits in the kitchen with the child
beside the Little Marvel Stove,
reading the jokes from the almanac,
laughing and talking to hide her tears.
She thinks that her equinoctial tears
and the rain that beats on the roof of the house
were both foretold by the almanac,
but only known to a grandmother.
The iron kettle sings on the stove.
She cuts some bread and says to the child,
It's time for tea now; but the child
is watching the teakettle's small hard tears
dance like mad on the hot black stove,
the way the rain must dance on the house.
Tidying up, the old grandmother
hangs up the clever almanac
on its string. Birdlike, the almanac
hovers half open above the child,
hovers above the old grandmother
and her teacup full of dark brown tears.
She shivers and says she thinks the house
feels chilly, and puts more wood in the stove.
It was to be, says the Marvel Stove.
I know what I know, says the almanac.
With crayons the child draws a rigid house
and a winding pathway. Then the child
puts in a man with buttons like tears
and shows it proudly to the grandmother.
But secretly, while the grandmother
busies herself about the stove,
the little moons fall down like tears
from between the pages of the almanac
into the flower bed the child
has carefully placed in the front of the house.
Time to plant tears, says the almanac.
The grandmother sings to the marvelous stove
and the child draws another inscrutable house.
In the failing light, the old grandmother
sits in the kitchen with the child
beside the Little Marvel Stove,
reading the jokes from the almanac,
laughing and talking to hide her tears.
She thinks that her equinoctial tears
and the rain that beats on the roof of the house
were both foretold by the almanac,
but only known to a grandmother.
The iron kettle sings on the stove.
She cuts some bread and says to the child,
It's time for tea now; but the child
is watching the teakettle's small hard tears
dance like mad on the hot black stove,
the way the rain must dance on the house.
Tidying up, the old grandmother
hangs up the clever almanac
on its string. Birdlike, the almanac
hovers half open above the child,
hovers above the old grandmother
and her teacup full of dark brown tears.
She shivers and says she thinks the house
feels chilly, and puts more wood in the stove.
It was to be, says the Marvel Stove.
I know what I know, says the almanac.
With crayons the child draws a rigid house
and a winding pathway. Then the child
puts in a man with buttons like tears
and shows it proudly to the grandmother.
But secretly, while the grandmother
busies herself about the stove,
the little moons fall down like tears
from between the pages of the almanac
into the flower bed the child
has carefully placed in the front of the house.
Time to plant tears, says the almanac.
The grandmother sings to the marvelous stove
and the child draws another inscrutable house.
Friday, April 12, 2013
National Poetry Month: Marge Piercy
My favorite line in this poem is "The work of the world is as common as mud." This poem makes it clear that even though work is common, it's something that must be done and something that people long for because they are proud of the end results.
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To Be of Use
By Marge Piercy
The people I love the best
jump into work head first
without dallying in the shallows
and swim off with sure strokes almost out of sight.
They seem to become natives of that element,
the black sleek heads of seals
bouncing like half-submerged balls.
I love people who harness themselves, an ox to a heavy cart,
who pull like water buffalo, with massive patience,
who strain in the mud and the muck to move things forward,
who do what has to be done, again and again.
I want to be with people who submerge
in the task, who go into the fields to harvest
and work in a row and pass the bags along,
who are not parlor generals and field deserters
but move in a common rhythm
when the food must come in or the fire be put out.
The work of the world is common as mud.
Botched, it smears the hands, crumbles to dust.
But the thing worth doing well done
has a shape that satisfies, clean and evident.
Greek amphoras for wine or oil,
Hopi vases that held corn, are put in museums
but you know they were made to be used.
The pitcher cries for water to carry
and a person for work that is real.
jump into work head first
without dallying in the shallows
and swim off with sure strokes almost out of sight.
They seem to become natives of that element,
the black sleek heads of seals
bouncing like half-submerged balls.
I love people who harness themselves, an ox to a heavy cart,
who pull like water buffalo, with massive patience,
who strain in the mud and the muck to move things forward,
who do what has to be done, again and again.
I want to be with people who submerge
in the task, who go into the fields to harvest
and work in a row and pass the bags along,
who are not parlor generals and field deserters
but move in a common rhythm
when the food must come in or the fire be put out.
The work of the world is common as mud.
Botched, it smears the hands, crumbles to dust.
But the thing worth doing well done
has a shape that satisfies, clean and evident.
Greek amphoras for wine or oil,
Hopi vases that held corn, are put in museums
but you know they were made to be used.
The pitcher cries for water to carry
and a person for work that is real.
Thursday, April 11, 2013
National Poetry Month: Rabindranath Tagore
This poem brings a simplicity that is sometimes overlooked to my relationship with God. By repeating the image of being face to face with God, it takes away everything else and lets me focus on the importance of my relationship with him.
Face To FaceBy Rabindranath Tagore
Day after day, O lord of my life,
shall I stand before thee face to face.
With folded hands, O lord of all worlds,
shall I stand before thee face to face.
Under thy great sky in solitude and silence,
with humble heart shall I stand before thee face to face.
In this laborious world of thine, tumultuous with toil
and with struggle, among hurrying crowds
shall I stand before thee face to face.
And when my work shall be done in this world,
O King of kings, alone and speechless
shall I stand before thee face to face.
shall I stand before thee face to face.
With folded hands, O lord of all worlds,
shall I stand before thee face to face.
Under thy great sky in solitude and silence,
with humble heart shall I stand before thee face to face.
In this laborious world of thine, tumultuous with toil
and with struggle, among hurrying crowds
shall I stand before thee face to face.
And when my work shall be done in this world,
O King of kings, alone and speechless
shall I stand before thee face to face.
Wednesday, April 10, 2013
National Poetry Month: Elizabeth Bishop
I really like the way this poem talks about the conversations that are almost always in my head. I especially like her use of the word "uninnocent" because it captures the way I seem to think about things I know that I shouldn't dwell on but am unable to stop myself from thinking about.
ConversationBy Elizabeth Bishop
The tumult in the heart
keeps asking questions.
And then it stops and undertakes to answer
in the same tone of voice.
No one could tell the difference.
Uninnocent, these conversations start,
and then engage the senses,
only half-meaning to.
And then there is no choice,
and then there is no sense;
until a name
and all its connotation are the same.
keeps asking questions.
And then it stops and undertakes to answer
in the same tone of voice.
No one could tell the difference.
Uninnocent, these conversations start,
and then engage the senses,
only half-meaning to.
And then there is no choice,
and then there is no sense;
until a name
and all its connotation are the same.
Tuesday, April 9, 2013
National Poetry Month: WIlliam Butler Yeats
I like the emphasis that this poem gives to reflecting on all of the experiences we've had in life, even if they didn't turn out how we would have liked them to. I definitely need the reminder to take the time to look back and reflect instead of constantly looking to the future.
When You Are OldBy William Butler Yeats
When you are old and grey and full of sleep,
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim Soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;
And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.
And nodding by the fire, take down this book,
And slowly read, and dream of the soft look
Your eyes had once, and of their shadows deep;
How many loved your moments of glad grace,
And loved your beauty with love false or true,
But one man loved the pilgrim Soul in you,
And loved the sorrows of your changing face;
And bending down beside the glowing bars,
Murmur, a little sadly, how Love fled
And paced upon the mountains overhead
And hid his face amid a crowd of stars.
Monday, April 8, 2013
National Poetry Month: Matsuo Basho
There's something great about short poems because they are so simple, but can say so much. I especially like the image that this poem gives of the bee staggering because he's so overcome with pollen or the scent of the peony or both. It seems appropriate for my first day back to school from spring break since I'm sure to be staggering a bit by the end of it!
A Bee
By Matsuo Basho
A bee
staggers out
of the peony.
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A Bee
By Matsuo Basho
A bee
staggers out
of the peony.
Sunday, April 7, 2013
National Poetry Month: Robert Frost
Normally I'm not a fan of Robert Frost, but I do like this poem because of its simplicity, sweetness, and rhymes.
The Rose Family By Robert Frost
The Rose Family By Robert Frost
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The rose is a rose,
And was always a rose.
But the theory now goes
That the apple's a rose,
And the pear is, and so's
The plum, I suppose.
The dear only knows
What will next prove a rose.
You, of course, are a rose -
But were always a rose.
And was always a rose.
But the theory now goes
That the apple's a rose,
And the pear is, and so's
The plum, I suppose.
The dear only knows
What will next prove a rose.
You, of course, are a rose -
But were always a rose.
Saturday, April 6, 2013
National Poetry Month: Taylor Mali
How Falling in Love is like Owning a Dog
By Taylor Mali
First of all, it’s a big responsibility,
especially in a city like New York.
So think long and hard before deciding on love.
On the other hand, love gives you a sense of security:
when you’re walking down the street late at night
and you have a leash on love
ain’t no one going to mess with you.
Because crooks and muggers think love is unpredictable.
Who knows what love could do in its own defense?
especially in a city like New York.
So think long and hard before deciding on love.
On the other hand, love gives you a sense of security:
when you’re walking down the street late at night
and you have a leash on love
ain’t no one going to mess with you.
Because crooks and muggers think love is unpredictable.
Who knows what love could do in its own defense?
On cold winter nights, love is warm.
It lies between you and lives and breathes
and makes funny noises.
Love wakes you up all hours of the night with its needs.
It needs to be fed so it will grow and stay healthy.
It lies between you and lives and breathes
and makes funny noises.
Love wakes you up all hours of the night with its needs.
It needs to be fed so it will grow and stay healthy.
Love doesn’t like being left alone for long.
But come home and love is always happy to see you.
It may break a few things accidentally in its passion for life,
but you can never be mad at love for long.
But come home and love is always happy to see you.
It may break a few things accidentally in its passion for life,
but you can never be mad at love for long.
Is love good all the time? No! No!
Love can be bad. Bad, love, bad! Very bad love.
Love can be bad. Bad, love, bad! Very bad love.
Love makes messes.
Love leaves you little surprises here and there.
Love needs lots of cleaning up after.
Somethimes you just want to get love fixed.
Sometimes you want to roll up a piece of newspaper
and swat love on the nose,
not so much to cause pain,
just to let love know Don’t you ever do that again!
Love leaves you little surprises here and there.
Love needs lots of cleaning up after.
Somethimes you just want to get love fixed.
Sometimes you want to roll up a piece of newspaper
and swat love on the nose,
not so much to cause pain,
just to let love know Don’t you ever do that again!
Sometimes love just wants to go out for a nice long walk.
Because love loves exercise. It will run you around the block
and leave you panting, breathless. Pull you in different directions
at once, or wind itself around and around you
until you’re all wound up and you cannot move.
Because love loves exercise. It will run you around the block
and leave you panting, breathless. Pull you in different directions
at once, or wind itself around and around you
until you’re all wound up and you cannot move.
But love makes you meet people wherever you go.
People who have nothing in common but love
stop and talk to each other on the street.
People who have nothing in common but love
stop and talk to each other on the street.
Throw things away and love will bring them back,
again, and again, and again.
But most of all, love needs love, lots of it.
And in return, love loves you and never stops.
again, and again, and again.
But most of all, love needs love, lots of it.
And in return, love loves you and never stops.
Friday, April 5, 2013
National Poetry Month: Frank O'Hara
Why I Am Not a Painter
By Frank O'Hara
I am not a painter, I am a poet.
Why? I think I would rather be
a painter, but I am not. Well,
for instance, Mike Goldberg
is starting a painting. I drop in.
"Sit down and have a drink" he
says. I drink; we drink. I look
up. "You have SARDINES in it."
"Yes, it needed something there."
"Oh." I go and the days go by
and I drop in again. The painting
is going on, and I go, and the days
go by. I drop in. The painting is
finished. "Where's SARDINES?"
All that's left is just
letters, "It was too much," Mike says.
But me? One day I am thinking of
a color: orange. I write a line
about orange. Pretty soon it is a
whole page of words, not lines.
Then another page. There should be
so much more, not of orange, of
words, of how terrible orange is
and life. Days go by. It is even in
prose, I am a real poet. My poem
is finished and I haven't mentioned
orange yet. It's twelve poems, I call
it ORANGES. And one day in a gallery
I see Mike's painting, called SARDINES.
Thursday, April 4, 2013
National Poetry Month: Mary Oliver
Mockingbirds
By Mary Oliver
This morning
two mockingbirds
in the green field
were spinning and tossing
the white ribbons
of their songs
into the air.
I had nothing
better to do
than listen.
I mean this
seriously.
In Greece,
a long time ago,
an old couple
opened their door
to two strangers
who were,
it soon appeared,
not men at all,
but gods.
It is my favorite story -
how the old couple
had almost nothing to give
but their willingness
to be attentive -
but for this alone
the gods loved them
and blessed them -
when they rose
out of their mortal bodies,
like a million particles of water
from a fountain,
the light
swept into all the corners
of the cottage,
and the old couple,
shaken with understanding,
bowed down -
but still they asked for nothing
but the difficult life
which they had already.
And the gods smiled, as they vanished,
clapping their great wings.
Wherever it was
I was supposed to be
this morning -
whatever it was I said
I would be doing -
I was standing
at tend edge of the field -
I was hurrying
through my own soul,
opening its dark doors -
I was leaning out;
I was listening.
Wednesday, April 3, 2013
National Poetry Month: Derek Walcott
A City’s Death By Fire
By Derek Walcott
After that hot gospeller has levelled all but the churched sky,
I wrote the tale by tallow of a city’s death by fire;
Under a candle’s eye, that smoked in tears, I
Wanted to tell, in more than wax, of faiths that were snapped like wire.
All day I walked abroad among the rubbled tales,
Shocked at each wall that stood on the street like a liar;
Loud was the bird-rocked sky, and all the clouds were bales
Torn open by looting, and white, in spite of the fire.
By the smoking sea, where Christ walked, I asked, why
Should a man wax tears, when his wooden world fails?
In town, leaves were paper, but the hills were a flock of faiths;
To a boy who walked all day, each leaf was a green breath
Rebuilding a love I thought was dead as nails,
Blessing the death and the baptism by fire.
I wrote the tale by tallow of a city’s death by fire;
Under a candle’s eye, that smoked in tears, I
Wanted to tell, in more than wax, of faiths that were snapped like wire.
All day I walked abroad among the rubbled tales,
Shocked at each wall that stood on the street like a liar;
Loud was the bird-rocked sky, and all the clouds were bales
Torn open by looting, and white, in spite of the fire.
By the smoking sea, where Christ walked, I asked, why
Should a man wax tears, when his wooden world fails?
In town, leaves were paper, but the hills were a flock of faiths;
To a boy who walked all day, each leaf was a green breath
Rebuilding a love I thought was dead as nails,
Blessing the death and the baptism by fire.
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
National Poetry Month: Mark Doty
The Embrace
By Mark Doty
You weren't well or really ill yet either;
just a little tired, your handsomeness
tinged by grief or anticipation, which brought
to your face a thoughtful, deepening grace.
I didn't for a moment doubt you were dead.
I knew that to be true still, even in the dream.
You'd been out--at work maybe?--
having a good day, almost energetic.
We seemed to be moving from some old house
where we'd lived, boxes everywhere, things
in disarray: that was the story of my dream,
but even asleep I was shocked out of the narrative
by your face, the physical fact of your face:
inches from mine, smooth-shaven, loving, alert.
Why so difficult, remembering the actual look
of you? Without a photograph, without strain?
So when I saw your unguarded, reliable face,
your unmistakable gaze opening all the warmth
and clarity of you--warm brown tea--we held
each other for the time the dream allowed.
Bless you. You came back, so I could see you
once more, plainly, so I could rest against you
without thinking this happiness lessened anything,
without thinking you were alive again.
just a little tired, your handsomeness
tinged by grief or anticipation, which brought
to your face a thoughtful, deepening grace.
I didn't for a moment doubt you were dead.
I knew that to be true still, even in the dream.
You'd been out--at work maybe?--
having a good day, almost energetic.
We seemed to be moving from some old house
where we'd lived, boxes everywhere, things
in disarray: that was the story of my dream,
but even asleep I was shocked out of the narrative
by your face, the physical fact of your face:
inches from mine, smooth-shaven, loving, alert.
Why so difficult, remembering the actual look
of you? Without a photograph, without strain?
So when I saw your unguarded, reliable face,
your unmistakable gaze opening all the warmth
and clarity of you--warm brown tea--we held
each other for the time the dream allowed.
Bless you. You came back, so I could see you
once more, plainly, so I could rest against you
without thinking this happiness lessened anything,
without thinking you were alive again.
Monday, April 1, 2013
National Poetry Month: Portia Nelson
Autobiography in Five Short Chapters
By Portia Nelson
I
By Portia Nelson
I
I walk down the street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in.
I am lost ... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes me forever to find a way out.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk
I fall in.
I am lost ... I am helpless.
It isn't my fault.
It takes me forever to find a way out.
II
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place
but, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I pretend I don't see it.
I fall in again.
I can't believe I am in the same place
but, it isn't my fault.
It still takes a long time to get out.
III
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in ... it's a habit.
my eyes are open
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I see it is there.
I still fall in ... it's a habit.
my eyes are open
I know where I am.
It is my fault.
I get out immediately.
IV
I walk down the same street.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
There is a deep hole in the sidewalk.
I walk around it.
V
I walk down another street.
Sunday, February 10, 2013
Judging a Book by Its Lover by Lauren Leto
"Crappy paperbacks are tributes to use. They allow for cracking the spine and folding pages and rolling the book into a purse or shoving it into a cramped airplane seat pocket. Hardcovers always feel like a weighty, pricey possession. Something to be cared for, with a dust jacket to keep on the book and sometimes a small, overly delicate ribbon attached to the binding to be used as bookmark. The day I change my reading habits to preserve the appearance of my books is the day I start to die inside, for surely I'll have stopped loving to read. My relationship is with the stories; the book is merely the portal that must be able to meet whatever obstacle come our way so I can comfortable proceed with the story."
"By the end, the book has been used up, but I'm of the opinion that a good book should wear its readability, should bear the remnants of when the owner turned the page too quickly or couldn't put the book away while cooking a meal. I like to revisit it and find pages full of life from when I was reading the book. Annotations, dog-eared pages, coffee stains, and pasta sauce splashes - the only torture I won't put a book through is tearing out a page; the thought of it, missing a couple paragraphs fo the narrative or more, gives me deep anxiety."
"Happiness is a bent page."
While I'm not as hard on my books as she is, I can understand what she's trying to say here. When given the choice, I always go for the paperback over the hardcover. And while I try not to break the spines on my books, I do have a tendency to leave them face down on tables or to fold the corner of a page down if I don't have a bookmark handy. I don't usually make write annotations in my books. Instead I mark (with pencil so that it could be erased) the passages I want to remember.
"By the end, the book has been used up, but I'm of the opinion that a good book should wear its readability, should bear the remnants of when the owner turned the page too quickly or couldn't put the book away while cooking a meal. I like to revisit it and find pages full of life from when I was reading the book. Annotations, dog-eared pages, coffee stains, and pasta sauce splashes - the only torture I won't put a book through is tearing out a page; the thought of it, missing a couple paragraphs fo the narrative or more, gives me deep anxiety."
"Happiness is a bent page."
While I'm not as hard on my books as she is, I can understand what she's trying to say here. When given the choice, I always go for the paperback over the hardcover. And while I try not to break the spines on my books, I do have a tendency to leave them face down on tables or to fold the corner of a page down if I don't have a bookmark handy. I don't usually make write annotations in my books. Instead I mark (with pencil so that it could be erased) the passages I want to remember.
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Some Assembly Required by Anne Lamott
One of my favorite things to do while I read a book is to write down my favorite lines so that I can look at them later. I have several notebooks that are partially filled with lines from books I've read. But since I've switched over to electronically tracking what I'm reading, I figured it might be time to switch over to electronically writing down the lines I like too. We'll see if I like it.
On her church: "The hymns are bigger than any mistakes; you fumble around with the hymnal and sing the wrong words - sometimes I'm on the wrong verse - but the hymn expands to make room for each voice, even yours."
"They are remaking who they are, at a core level, with a third."
On meditation: "The universal mantra of the group is Baba nam kevalam, and I cannot get it out of my head. It is the most user-friendly mantra I have heard. It means: Love is all there is; everything is made of love and love is who you are, period."
"I called Bonnie again - statistically, it has been proven nine times out of ten that simply talking to a trusted person helps in most tough situations. Saying my problems out loud is the main way I am ever able to let go. People say in chipper voices, "Let go and let God," and I think, "Oh, fuck you."
"This family business can be so stressful - difficult, damaged people, time that might be better used elsewhere - yet out of that, some accidental closeness, laughter, some pieced-together joy."
On her first trip to India: "Bill tells me that in Nepal, there is a phrase, rungi-chungi-jilli-milli, which means total bombardment on ever leve, too much of everything all at once. Every color, smell, taste, sound, and echo fills the air, hot and spicy curries, every kind of sweet, harmony and silence and horns honking."
"...you love your kids way too much to ever feel safe again."
On one of her friend's lives: "I loved his total devotion to and belief in family, in gathering, meeting, mourning, celebrating, and eating - and eating and eating."
"I was reminded of the Four Immutable Laws of the Spirit: Whoever is present are the right people. Whenever it begins is the right time. Whatever happens is the only thing that could have happened. And when it's over, it's over."
On the meditation teacher: "And when Ragu arrived during meditation, my heart skipped. He's a Love rock star."
"Jesus had his good days and bad days and stomach viruses. Not to mention that on top of it all, he had a mom who had bad days and good days of her own. She's like me and Amy and like all of us; she would have been as hormonal, too. And she must have been jealous sometimes of the people Jesus chose to spend time with instead of her. Jealous is such a toxic virus. 'Who are these people? And what do they have that I don't have?' It's pretty easy to be deeply selfish when it comes to sharing your child. Even Mary must have been like: 'Back off! He's mine.'"
"There are gaping holes in everything. Life is a nice fresh batch of Swiss cheese. (Not to self: Savor the holes, too, like the spaces between musical notes.)"
"Then, out of nowhere, I remembered something a man named Bob Earle siad years ago: that his mind wanted to kill him and try to live on its own. And in a blink my bad trance was broken. I said to my mind, 'You can't have me'..."
"I said what I always say at weddings; That two people fall in love and decide to see if their love might stand up over time; if there might be enough grace and forgiveness and the occasional memory lapse to hold their love together into the fullness of time. That we celebrate the commitment to this work, the the joy, to the inevitable struggles, to the energy that is both sweet and deep that the two people exude in their love for each other. That we celebrate our senses of humor and patience, and the greatness and cost of enduring family love."
"'And what do you do in the face of this powerlessness? As a parent?' 'You get to be obsessed and angry,' Tom said. 'And they get to be the age they are, and act like teenagers if they want to. There is a zero-percent chance you will change them. So we breathe in, and out, talk to friends, as needed. We show up, wear clean underwear, say hello to strangers. We plant bulbs, and pick up litter, knowing there will be more in twenty minutes. We pray that we might cooperate with any flicker of light we can find in the world.'"
On her church: "The hymns are bigger than any mistakes; you fumble around with the hymnal and sing the wrong words - sometimes I'm on the wrong verse - but the hymn expands to make room for each voice, even yours."
"They are remaking who they are, at a core level, with a third."
On meditation: "The universal mantra of the group is Baba nam kevalam, and I cannot get it out of my head. It is the most user-friendly mantra I have heard. It means: Love is all there is; everything is made of love and love is who you are, period."
"I called Bonnie again - statistically, it has been proven nine times out of ten that simply talking to a trusted person helps in most tough situations. Saying my problems out loud is the main way I am ever able to let go. People say in chipper voices, "Let go and let God," and I think, "Oh, fuck you."
"This family business can be so stressful - difficult, damaged people, time that might be better used elsewhere - yet out of that, some accidental closeness, laughter, some pieced-together joy."
On her first trip to India: "Bill tells me that in Nepal, there is a phrase, rungi-chungi-jilli-milli, which means total bombardment on ever leve, too much of everything all at once. Every color, smell, taste, sound, and echo fills the air, hot and spicy curries, every kind of sweet, harmony and silence and horns honking."
"...you love your kids way too much to ever feel safe again."
On one of her friend's lives: "I loved his total devotion to and belief in family, in gathering, meeting, mourning, celebrating, and eating - and eating and eating."
"I was reminded of the Four Immutable Laws of the Spirit: Whoever is present are the right people. Whenever it begins is the right time. Whatever happens is the only thing that could have happened. And when it's over, it's over."
On the meditation teacher: "And when Ragu arrived during meditation, my heart skipped. He's a Love rock star."
"Jesus had his good days and bad days and stomach viruses. Not to mention that on top of it all, he had a mom who had bad days and good days of her own. She's like me and Amy and like all of us; she would have been as hormonal, too. And she must have been jealous sometimes of the people Jesus chose to spend time with instead of her. Jealous is such a toxic virus. 'Who are these people? And what do they have that I don't have?' It's pretty easy to be deeply selfish when it comes to sharing your child. Even Mary must have been like: 'Back off! He's mine.'"
"There are gaping holes in everything. Life is a nice fresh batch of Swiss cheese. (Not to self: Savor the holes, too, like the spaces between musical notes.)"
"Then, out of nowhere, I remembered something a man named Bob Earle siad years ago: that his mind wanted to kill him and try to live on its own. And in a blink my bad trance was broken. I said to my mind, 'You can't have me'..."
"I said what I always say at weddings; That two people fall in love and decide to see if their love might stand up over time; if there might be enough grace and forgiveness and the occasional memory lapse to hold their love together into the fullness of time. That we celebrate the commitment to this work, the the joy, to the inevitable struggles, to the energy that is both sweet and deep that the two people exude in their love for each other. That we celebrate our senses of humor and patience, and the greatness and cost of enduring family love."
"'And what do you do in the face of this powerlessness? As a parent?' 'You get to be obsessed and angry,' Tom said. 'And they get to be the age they are, and act like teenagers if they want to. There is a zero-percent chance you will change them. So we breathe in, and out, talk to friends, as needed. We show up, wear clean underwear, say hello to strangers. We plant bulbs, and pick up litter, knowing there will be more in twenty minutes. We pray that we might cooperate with any flicker of light we can find in the world.'"
Saturday, February 2, 2013
What I'm reading
This is the week of trying to finish books. I'm in the middle of three right now.
The first is Some Assembly Required: A Journal of my Son's First Son by Anne Lamott with Sam Lamott,. It's about the birth of her grandson and watching her son become a father. I love the way that she writes so honestly and openly about her life and the lives of those around her. The only problem I have with reading this book is that there are so many lines that I like to think about and write down that I have to stop a lot. It's a library so I have to finish it soon so I can return it.
The second is Ghetto Medic: A Father in the 'Hood by Rachel Hennick. This book is written about the author's father who worked as an EMT in Baltimore. The stories are interesting, but a little gruesome for me. It is one of the many free books that I have on my Kindle.
The third is Empty by Suzanne Weyn. It's a young adult dystopian book that is about the world when the oil supply is running seriously low. This is one of the books that I got for free from the professor that I took one of my graduate classes from this summer. I have a stack of other young adult books that I'm slowly working my way through.
The first is Some Assembly Required: A Journal of my Son's First Son by Anne Lamott with Sam Lamott,. It's about the birth of her grandson and watching her son become a father. I love the way that she writes so honestly and openly about her life and the lives of those around her. The only problem I have with reading this book is that there are so many lines that I like to think about and write down that I have to stop a lot. It's a library so I have to finish it soon so I can return it.
The second is Ghetto Medic: A Father in the 'Hood by Rachel Hennick. This book is written about the author's father who worked as an EMT in Baltimore. The stories are interesting, but a little gruesome for me. It is one of the many free books that I have on my Kindle.
The third is Empty by Suzanne Weyn. It's a young adult dystopian book that is about the world when the oil supply is running seriously low. This is one of the books that I got for free from the professor that I took one of my graduate classes from this summer. I have a stack of other young adult books that I'm slowly working my way through.
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Slowing down
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I especially like that I have several days of break left to enjoy before having to go back to school. While I haven't accomplished much of what I wanted to get done during break, I'm okay with it because I keep getting sick so I've been forced to slow down, which is obviously something that I need. Hopefully I can keep from having to be sick in order to slow down from now on.
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